Dementia Life

    Today

Every day I strive to keep up the happy facade…

Today, it was a struggle I lost…

Every day I keep busy so that I have no time to dwell…

Today I realized that the scales are shifting, as

Every day more of “our” things get stacked onto my pile

Today, I had nothing left in me to handle my own pile

Every day, I confidently say “I can do this!”

But today, doubt crept in

Every day I convince myself that I can just LOVE him enough to keep this demon at bay

Today, the demon drew first blood. And I am shaken.

When your love has dementia

Every day is full of a thousand crackling shocks to your brain

Each little snap is a realization that another small piece of him is missing 

When your love has dementia

Every day you search his eyes a thousand times

Longing for a glimpse of him so you’ll know that all is not yet lost

When your love has dementia

Every day you try to adapt and adjust to the rapid fire blows to your heart

Helping him, and yourself to ease into this new life, trying not to long for the old one too much

When your love has dementia

You run as fast as you can, doing anything, everything, to keep ahead of the sadness

Because the worst thing you could do, would be to let him see the sadness in your eyes.

When your love has dementia

You think that if you can just love him enough

He won’t go.